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Mum likes reading, decorating, shopping with the girls, and Starbucks. She also feels funny writing in the 3rd person. Papa (also known as Sparky) is currently looking at me with a blank stare having asked him to add something about himself to the blog. (Now he wants to say something) The only thing he loves more in life than music and Coke is his wife and kids. (Awww...) :) Little Lotte is a genius on the computer and makes me fall over laughing every day with her quick wit. She loves computers and animals. Sweet Pea abandoned her family and moved to Phoenix for work and is now married as of 2/28/06. She is beautiful and smart and the most nurturing person I know. She gave me the greatest gift ever when she made me a grandmother. I am the proud Mum Mum to Andrew Christopher. There are no words to describe the joy of having a grandson!

Monday, January 05, 2009

Little L - sister, aunt, daughter, friend...

SO I am sitting in the dark, in a hotel room across from Disneyland. I should be at work. But I am here. I took 3 days of personal time because my littlest bird is flying the coop.

Little L mentioned last night that she was surprised that I didn't write about it. I explained that I didn't want to upset her. I have always been most protective of her, she is the youngest after all.

But it's early and I am awake so if she wants to know what I would write, I will write...

I cannot believe the moment is here. I have tried not to think about it because I am a complete mess. I don't like being a complete mess. I like being in control of my emotions which is pretty funny because I don't think I am ever in control of my emotions when it comes to my family. But I am really good at not thinking about something I have to face... and this is by far the hardest thing I have to face right now. How incredibly blessed am I that THIS is the hardest thing for me to face?

I'm rambling... it's avoidance... rambling will not remind me of the way she makes me laugh. No... I mean LAUGH. She is sooo funny. Not that she tells jokes -- she just sees things in a humorous way and then will comment on it. Her view of life and her DELIVERY is what makes me fall down laughing every single day!

She is compassionate and highly forgiving. It's been really hard lately due to my menopausal moments and her "not still a girl/not yet a woman" growth spurts and yet SHE is the one who will apologize and give me a hug which melts my heart completely.

Little L is ready to embark on a great adventure. She is here for a months but I have told her -- HOME IS HOME and being 19 is all about finding yourself. Enjoy -- like it or don't like it. But she can ALWAYS come home. ALWAYS. And in fact, the only reason I am not a blubbering mess is because I just pretend that she will be coming home this fall and everything will be back to the way it was before this crazy Disney Co. offered her in an internship and stole her away from the nest. :-)

My heart cannot hold all of the love and pride I feel for her. She has been, and continues to be, the one who tries the hardest, sees the best in situations, and loves unconditionally. She is the friend that I love and fight with, that I shop and gossip with, that I plan and scheme with. She is the daughter that makes me see the good in people and situations when I am in a hormonal rage, the daughter who asks, "Can I get you anything, Mama?", the girl who uses humor to bring me out of a foul mood.

The fact that she is about to embark on this great journey is scary and exciting for both of us. She already has made friends with a roommate, a guardian angel if you ask me. She is packed and ready, paperwork filled out, clothes bought. During the day, we are excited, at night we are scared. More rambling...

Little L --

I love you more than life itself. I am so proud of you. I think you are going to be just fine. Just know that I am here for you ANYTIME - a phone call, an email, webcam, car ride, or airplane.

Remember that you are STRONGER THAN YOU THINK... and while I am at it... I'm going to remind myself of that when I hug you and say "see you soon!" tomorrow when I dtop you off...

I love you, Little L... I hope you know how much.

Love and Kisses,


Blogger sweet pea said...

I never realized just how many pics we had of her with the baby. In response to your blog, please see mine. Love you!

6:48 PM  

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